@FOUND SOUL,
I truly love my wife, I have been for her in all challenges.
The first phase of our battle was when (at the cause of finding solutions of the problems) my family objected to our marriage, after the due traditional bride prize rites. The said that we are not compatible to marry, traditionally. But I made them understand that that cultural belief has no effect on us, these days. Because we are Christian. And they later repented and everybody around me fell in love with her. of course she is a very good girl of 27.
The second phase of battle was constant bleeding earth time we make love, kinds of tick congealed dark blood would be falling off. That one even caused me to hate sex. But I was still in love with her, and we work hard until a doctor promised to handle that one, and did, but not totally. I love her and would never want to hurt her.
My mother had invited her where she spend a long time with her taking treatment, yet we still depend on miracle.
I don't know how she will feel if am to look her into the eyes and say such thing. She will feel really bad. And am feeling disappointed with myself.
I had to stop her work since March, so she could relax and have time to travel for the treatments invitations.
I reluctantly approached orphanage home to enquire for adoption last time, as my father suggested, but it was not easy; both in cost and procedure. They were looking at me as an impotent and was suggesting I took care of one stranded pregnant teenage girl.
But for me, I can only adopt and relax if I know that I have had a biological offspring, even if I never see it again.
Am very confused and worried, how much mistake am I making?