@dalehileman,
Perhaps another participant, Think, who doesn't have so much yardwork on hand, will attempt a translation of your q into a form more suitable for the Average Clod (me)
Perhaps #....197
Yet Think, let me try. Yes, I could be dead wrong:
I am a temporary atheist, meaning that until the Controller of my Life goes for a walk with me,
a) justifying Her behavior according to the purest level of right and wrong that a human definition can achieve,
....1) identifying Herself to me--with conclusive evidence, and
...2) instructing me Her most pertinent commands, explaining why and how to fulfill each one; or
b) proves She will spare me if I obey, but torture me otherwise,
.....since She has not provided either of these assurances, I am naturally assuming She cannot be relied upon. Therefore I must assume the following position: "No one trustworthy is in control of my life and afterlife, that I can rationally react to, in a way to save myself "
As to why I need to grapple with inhuman issues like creation, when Her failure to respond to my uncertainty is only more evidence of either Her untrustworthiness or an outright denial of Her existence?
Since, Think, I had spent the better part of an hour at it, I am fully responsible for any and all typos which I am unable to address because 1) a2k software has shut me down for taking so long, 2) my BH is calling me for lunch, or 3) yardwork calls even louder