I see where our money is going per say. If he is not holding any back.
He reassures me there's no one else.
I have been insecure about our relationship for a while. I've asked him to go to lunch on three separate occasions. He did take me once but it sucked because I had to get three "no I'm to busy or I'm going to work out at lunch".
I have made it perfectly clear that I want him to give me special attention other than sex. I want him to make time for me other than "the usual" time. And I've been very insecure and needy. Of course I'm driving him away with all this and I understand that. I just don't get the part where " I'm not going to meet your needs but I still want you to have sex with me". men are pigs.
Financially he is trying to be less selfish. But I feel all of it has been done out of bitching about it. I don't want to have to bitch to be a priority.
I know, I'm a damn push over and I've been one for years to a man who thinks physical contact is how you show a woman you love her.
Ya know guys. We gotta "want" to fu(k ya.