CONFUSE ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP

I AM 27 MALE,I AM FROM VERY SIMPLE FAMILY WHERE EVERY CHILD SHOULD STUDY AND DO WELL IN HIS LIFE AND CARE ABOUT HIS FAMILY,SO I LEAVE MY NATIVE PLACE AND CAME TO METRO CITY TO BECOME AN ENGINEER,MY PARENTS HELPED ME ABOUT FESS AND ALL, MY THOUGHTS ARE ALSO SAME AND COMPLETED MY ENGINEERING BUT WHILE DOING MY COLLEGE I MET WITH A MARRIED WOMEN AGE 38.HAVING 2 KIDS. WHILE I WAS IN 1ST YR SLOWLY SLOWLY WE BECAME VERY GOOD FRIEND I ALWAYS THINK THAT I SHOULD NOT GO FURTHER IN THIS RELATIONSHIP AS SHE IS A MARRIED WOMEN AND ELDER THAN ME BUT I CAN NOT STOP MY SELF,SHE WAS PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY TORTURED BY HER HUSBAND ALWAYS AND SHE USED TO CRY WHILE TALKING WITH ME ,THERE WAS LOT OF CAUSE JUST ON A SMALL ISSUE HIS HUSBAND BECAME ANGRY AND TRY TO DOMINATE HER HE USED TO DRINK ALCOHOL EVERY DAY, SO I WAS ONLY CAN GIVE SYMPATHY NOT CAN ENTERTAIN IN HER LIFE AND JUST BECAUSE OF HER MISERABLE CONDITION I TRY TO CONSOLE HER ALWAYS...I NEVER CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDY.WE MET AFTER THAT SEVERAL TIME AND HAVE PHYSICAL RELATIONSHIP ALSO SHE ALWAYS SMILE AND CARE ABOUT ME LOT SHE SUPPORT ME ON EVERY STEP THAN I REALIZE I ALSO LOVE HER VERY MUCH SO I DECIDED I WILL GO FURTHER AND I WILL TAKE HER FROM HER CRUEL HUSBAND BUT GOD HAVE DECIDED FOR ME ANOTHER STORY HER HUSBAND COMMIT SUICIDE BECAUSE OF FINANCIAL PROBLEM BUT LATER WE CAME TO KNOW HE WAS HAVING SOME INFORMATION ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP GOD KNOWS BUT AFTER THAT SHE HAVE TO SURVIVE FOR HER KIDS AND CAN NOT LEAVE HIM AS SHE STRUGGLED LOT TO MAKE HIS KIDS FUTURE I ALSO SUPPORT HER NOT FINANCIALLY BUT I ALWAYS MORALLY BOOST HER AND WHEN EVER SHE HAVE TO GET THE THINGS AND HAVE TO GO ANYWHERE I USED TO GO WITH HER I NEVER CAME IN-FRONT OF THE KIDS SO SHE SAID ME I ALSO WANT TO SUICIDE AND CUT THE PHONE I WAS WORRIED AND SOON I REACHED HER HOME WHERE HIS KIDS WAS ALSO WORRIED SO I TRY TO MAKE HER FELL HAPPY AND TELL HIM TO THINK ABOUT YOUR KIDS AS HE IS INNOCENT YOU HAVE TO LIVE FOR HER AND I ALSO LOVE YOU LOT AFTER THAT I MARRIED WITH HER IN COURT....LATER I FINISHED MY DEGREE JUST PASS,NOT SCORED GOOD AND USED TO STAY WITH HER ALONG WITH KIDS,SHE ALWAYS USED TO ASK ME THAT AM I LOOKING ELDER THAN YOU I ALSO THINK MY SELF WHAT THE NEIGHBOR SAYS BUT I THINK THAT I LOVE HER AND I HAVE TO CARE FOR HER WHAT EVER PEOPLE THINK I DO NOT NEED THINK ON IT SO BECAUSE OF FINANCIAL PROBLEM I DECIDED TO DO JOB BUT SHE DID NOT WANT ME TO DO JOB SHE SAID TO DO OWN BUSINESS BUT IN MY WHOLE FAMILY NO ONE DID BUSINESS ALL ARE GRADUATED AND GOT PLACED IN PRIVATE OR PUBLIC SECTOR SO HOW CAN I BUT SHE ALWAYS RESISTED ME NOT TO JOIN ANY COMPANY ACTUALLY SHE THINK THAT MAY BE IN THE COMPANY I START FLUTTERING WITH ANY OTHER GIRL AS I AM YOUNGER THEN HER SO I DID NOT JOIN ANY COMPANY AND START MY EDUCATIONAL CONSULTANCY BUSINESS AND LIVES HAPPILY PREVIOUSLY I WAS BACHELOR I HAVE SOME FRIENDS WHERE I WAS STAYING AMONG WITH THEM WE USED TO MEET THEM WITH MY WIFE SO LIFE WAS GOING SMOOTHLY BUT AFTER SOME TIME I FELL THAT I AM STAYING IN HER HOUSE NOT OUR HOUSE I MEAN NOT MINE HOUSE BECAUSE SHE GOT THAT HOUSE FROM HER HUSBAND FATHER SO I START FEELING IT SHE TRY TO TELL ME TO BUILD YOUR OWN HOUSE THAN WE WILL STAY IN YOUR OWN HOUSE, I WAS CONFUSED ON THAT TIME AS I HAVE NOT MUCH EXPERIENCE IN MY BUSINESS NOT THAT MUCH WEALTH SO I CAN BUILD MY OWN HOUSE THAN AFTER I AGAIN STAYING WITH MY BACHELOR FRIENDS AND TRY TO GAIN THAT MUCH MONEY TO BUILD MY HOME BUT STILL I UNABLE TO MAKE IT WE MEET WITH EACH OTHER SOMETIMES I USED TO GO HER HOUSE SOMETIME SHE USED TO COME IN FRIENDS ROOM WHERE STILL I AM STAYING AND DID NOT INFORMED THIS WHOLE STORY TO MY FAMILY BECAUSE HE NEVER EXCEPT THIS I KNOW AND MY FATHER ALSO CANT SUPPORT MY RELATIONSHIP AND I CAN NOT QUIT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH ANY ONE WHAT I WILL DO PLEASE DO SUGGEST ME ..............