Guilt about watching porn a long time ago.

you want to put yourself in jail for it?

I think some sort of counseling might be in order...

good luck.

You remind me of me, as I was as scrupulous catholic teen warding off impure thoughts (now multi decades ago, but I remember it well).

Please relax, you are normal.

Go to the local police? Are you kidding? Please do not.
I suppose you live in a state that would care about that - mostly even the most repressive states keep that information only as a stick.

No I don't want to go to jail lol, nor do I think I deserve to because I was just curious about all the different types of porns, and found a type that I couldn't bring my self to watch ever again. Given the sitaution and after all this time, is my continued guilt still justified? or am I blowing it out of porportion? I did see a conseller about it a few years ago and told her blunty what I did and she just walked out of the room. Which just made me feel worse.

talking to the police about it makes jail a possibility.

I'd suggest a male counselor.

and yes, I think you are making too big a deal of it.

learn your lesson, and move forward.

backward looking guilt is never healthy...

A male counselor could be a briber (thinking the worst or maybe the usual).

But I'll be glad to say the poster should not be working up guilt.

You've served your sentence. You may now let yourself out of your personal jail.

I think that's what I needed to hear.

Thank you.

The society as in the US society is insane over the issue like no other nation in the world.

Ten years ago is a long time and you likely had junked the computer long ago but if you had it laying around take out it hard drive and drill holes in it and then throw it away.

Deleting files does not mean that they are gone for sure as the delete function only free up the area on the hard drive the files had existed on to be able to be used again, it does not wipe it.

Only when and if that area is used once more by the OS are the files wiped.

Sadly there been cases where for one reason or another someone had found such long ago deleted files and it had cause problems for their former owners.

The odds are great that those files are now gone forever but it is not zero so if that computer is still in your hands it is worthwhile to reduce the risk to zero at the cost of a very old hard drive at least in my opinion.

As far as feeling guilt for looking at such materials out to curiosity so long ago it seems an over reaction to the fact that human curiosity sometime lead us all to do questionable things in our lives.

As far as going to the police and risk ruining your future for zero gains to anyone that is being beyond stupid.

If you feel the need to talk about it I would suggest a license mental health counselor who can help you with your feelings of guilt and who by law must keep the informations you share private in most cases.

The police are not set up to be mental health counselors to say the least.

Ever internet crimes police officer, prosecutor, and judge has had to review evidence seized as with child pornography. If you've never seen it you wont understand why it's so heinous. If you wanna assuage your guilt, help us eradicate it, catch bad guys, and protect children. Take what you know, and how you feel, and turn it to something positive.

Yes, just move on. Don't go to the police. They have a duty to refer it to the child-protection peope and you'll be certain to be prosecuted. And for what good ? You'll be sectioned, your future career will be in jeopardy, you might even be jailed. Whatever you opinion is about the laws on child-pornography, and I myself think someone just looking out of curiosity should not be prosecuted, it the law that accessing such images is a criminal offence with harsh penalties. Move on. Keep quiet about it. Don't write confessions on line even to pretty-confidential sites like able2know. Don't let guilt ruin your life. You erred, but you regret your mistake, so in my mind, you're forgiven. No harm resulted from your actions. Curiosity is perfectly natural.

Curiosity is the excuse they all give.

Deliberately accessing images of rape and torture is more than curiosity.

You guys have taken note that this thread is ten ten years old!!!!!!!!!

I'm aware of that. I'm also aware that Puto is a recent arrival who seems to be targeting the sex threads.

You should feel guilt - you know that. What the standard is for being free of dread is unclear. If you can tell yourself to live better and it works....