aidan wrote:
I'm sorry to read that Rex. Please accept my condolences. Of course now I feel stupid for saying to up the tempo. I'm very, very sorry for your loss and understand now more what you were trying to say in your song, although I hope you don't really blame yourself for his suicide.
I like the other sentiment about people always trying to place blame for stuff on other people and nothing ever gets solved - I think in fact that I can remember my father saying that on occasion about stuff, 'If you have to have someone to blame for something - just blame me'- to cut through the ridiculous cycle of assigning blame and never solving anything.
I like the next song too. It reminds me of a John Prine song, although and this is a compliment, though I love his voice for a certain idiosyncratic quality I don't know how exactly to describe - I guess his voice is a little more tenor -ish and slightly nasal - I like your voice better. It's clearer and purer.
I can picture/hear you doing a good job on a Bob Dylan song - one that tells a story.
I thank you for the condolences, you are a good and caring soul Aidan. You are not stupid at all, you have said the same things most of my friends say, that my songs are too slow. I am stupid for taking it to heart when you are probably right.
I am going to try and avoid the topic of my ex bf because I want his memory to rest in peace and I think I may have done him a disservice in discussing personal matters so openly. Sometimes his intimate presence floods back to me and I am overwhelmed with love and sadness for him. If I did not have songs like "Blame Me" I would not know how I ever would have coped with such trauma. When I think poor me, I double take and say, well, poor him... I remember his gentle slow hand style of playing lead guitar that would make me cry when I would hear him play and his stubborn streak and it just rips my heart out all over again.
I feel partially responsible for his suicide because I was his best friend and I always wish I had done more for him in hindsight.
If you notice I sound a bit like Cat Stevens in the song “Blame Me” so it has other overtones possibly even political related to 9/11. This was intentional so as to diffuse the blaming going on even on as grand a scale as religions and ideologies fighting each other. Like the lines (a place to feel, artificial belief - like a leaf on a great tree in the wind by the river of hope.) I guess this is my legacy and attempt to quell conspiracies and endless tit for tat squabbles in order to help people to heal and think rightly about who is to blame regardless of who is really at fault. We are all with fault and we all share the blame in some way or another. It is a difficult subject and I know it raises some sore spot issues and questions.
Also I am brought to the religion of Jesus and his taking the sins of the world upon himself, he who, according to the writings, “knew no sin” and if there is anything I would like to retain from my misguided years of religion versus my strict agnosticism that I believe in today, it would be this message of humbling oneself for the sake of others in love.
Ahh yes John Prine I own over 2000 vinyl and for some strange reason I was introduced to his music late in my career but from the first listen I have loved his music and themes. My favorite John Prine songs are “blue umbrella“ and “Angel From Montgomery“.
I used to sing Dylan almost every night in my live years of solo entertaining. Positively 4th street and Mr. Tambourine Man and Lay Lady Lay were my favorites. Each with nice story like verses.
Thank you for the thoughtful comments on my voice… For many years I thought of myself as simply a career singer until around the age of 17 I started writing song lyrics and today I have quite a repertoire of original material. But still I thank the powers that be for the gift of my voice I guess it is my greatest quality. Part of my voice I nurtured built with practice and part of it I inherited from my mom who was a church soloist and had a powerful voice. I think writing has become a close second to my voice. Someday when my voice is gone my writing will be the thing that sustains the last years of my life I guess. As for the song “That’s What Love Can Do” I was experimenting with styles not sure who I was trying to sound like but reminds me a bit of Jim Croce. Well thanks Aidan for your awesome comments, take care and hope to chat again soon