@JBeukema,
oh wait.. god himself says to honor our father and our mother.. so nevermind.. god put us in their care.. surely that's part of the bargain... children for enjoyment.. however they choose.. and we all know.. "it's all god's plan".. he already knew.. and there is a bigger "purpose" to your suffering lololo... how bout when these christian parents turn your siblings against you because u "acted outside of faith" you took justice out of "god's" hand.. lolol.. so by using the "law of the land" against them.. i was sinning against god.. should have waited for god to judge them and their sins against me.. lololol.. when their excuse for abusing me was punishment... how come if it was so bad as to deserve that kind of treatment.. they didnt just "wait on god"... well im sure glad they felt more qualified to get their prayers answered by god than i was.
im so tired of talking about religion.. so so very much sick of it.. the residue of religion still sticks to me.. and my intellect battles my emotions.. constantly.. and then this jesusness.. i am still influenced by it.. i still catch myself praying.. out of habit.. of course i start laughing.. and i feel no guilt afterwards.. i feel no conviction.. i feel no pull toward my "father".. it is amazing what religion can do for and against you.
if ur a christian.. dont try to reach out to me.. im over it.. if god felt my pain or wanted me to understand.. im sure he had the power to comfort me when i was screaming for him.. but since i no longer believe he exists.. and him not existing makes it easier for me than him ignoring me for some greater purpose he had for me.. so no thanks