Tell The Honest Truth.....

What do you mean.... again?

would you?

well gus as the pope you don't fear death and hell...so why would you worry?

Jenn12......yes.

Bi-Polar, I've been reading between the lines of some of your posts and it seems to me that you have reached a stage of either rationalization or desperation. You have this savagely wicked urge to once again put the drinking straw on top of the mirror and send hundreds of thousands of little white particles racing toward your nostril at such at alarming speed that they snap your head back.

Or am I reading you wrong?

and you had to read between the lines for this? the vicar of christ? You're kidding right?

You see, now you're getting angry. Withdrawals perhaps?

Suck it up there BPB....oops, bad choice of words, but the sentiment is there. Are you rich now? Save yourself by giving me a loan.

No, but then I have never had that exact problem.

I would be exhilarated with adequate money, ne'er mind lots and lots. I would probably drink (vice of choice) less.
I dunno bpb as well as others do, but grasp hands from what I do know, we agree at least sometimes although he doesn't know it since I tend to just read....

I might indulge in a little smoke, but that would be it for this gal.

I enjoyed getting high a lot when I was young--high school and college--but as I got older and more responsible it became less fun.

Haven't done any of that stuff in many years, and won't.

The herb just made me paranoid, it seemed, and the flake was always too intense for regular consumption.

One of my best friends went through rehab and has stayed clean and sober for about five years now. Observing the pain he caused before and that which he went through afterward was enough for me to straighten up.

It's just an invasive personal observation, dude, one you can feel free to disregard disdainfully, but I get the sense from your postings of late that you're going through some moderate crises. Missing your anniversary, the piercings, etc.

You doin' OK? You want to talk about it here?

No.

Is there something other than the things you listed that would give you the incentive to do drugs at all? I can't think of any.

Nope.

But I'm going home next week on vacation, and am going to do some serious pork and beer.

At this point in my life, there is just so much that I can take. Had a cupla glasses of white wine at dinner a few nights ago, and I was
f-l-y-i-n-g!

I consumed more than my allotted share for life years ago.

I think it's interesting that some people think this question means I'm having a crisis or something.......I merely am asking if it wasn't an interference with your life or health if you would go back to getting high.

I loved getting loaded...stoned...coked up...tripping...etc. etc.

I quit because I had other things to do and because I saw it had negative health effects,probably the same reasons those of you who used to get high quit, but if tomorrow none of those things were issues, I would go back to getting high, not everyday and chronically, but socially and semi regularly because it was so much fun..........that's all.

Getting high was always a positive experience for me, most times anyhow. Of course my lifestyle and occupation lent itself to more flexibility than most peoples.

Anyway, I'm not heading downtown to score or anything and I'm fine thanks for asking.

Sometimes a question is just that nothing more. :wink:

BPB - I understand what you are saying.

There was a minor meningitis outbreak in Texas back in '86, and I was one of the lucky winners. After they did a spinal tap on me (needed for the diagnosis) I got a shot of demarol in the rump. That was the best I've ever felt in my life, and the instant it started to wear off I was begging for more.

It's sad to me, in a way, that I know I will never feel as good again in this life, as I did when I had that shot.

Nothing beats the first time for anything....but some things keep their luster longer........narcotics unfortunately are not necessarily one of them...judicious use of anything is the order of the day.......good sex never loses it's great rush, but it can kill ya too if you're not careful.......but not in the seventies :wink: ......good times....

Hey, me too.