Do I just hate working?

This post isn’t a question — just me airing out a conclusion I’ve come to recently.

Rewinding a bit, I started working in IT back in 2007. I had moderate success, but truthfully, it bored me. It had its challenging moments, but 90% of the time, the hardest part was just waking up on time.

I’ve always been a very active person. I love sports, and I used to compete in Jiu-Jitsu and CrossFit (before I had kids). In 2020, I hit pause on my IT career to pursue something in the fitness world. I enrolled in a training course, became a personal trainer, and coached CrossFit and weightlifting. This felt like my true passion…

Or at least, I thought it was.

Three years passed. My second child was born. Financial pressure started to build, so I decided to return to IT — which, surprisingly, I missed. Especially the mental challenges. But now, just like before, I’m mostly bored.

The ironic part? In my last performance review, my boss gave me a score of 115%. I overachieved. I got promoted. During my workday, I do everything I’m supposed to, I help my coworkers, and then… I just have loads of free time. I end up watching YouTube, doing my own thing, running errands, working out.

The truth is, I know I’m competent at anything I commit to — but I just don’t care about what I do for work. I thought sports was my passion, but when it became a full-time job, it lost its magic. Now I’m back in IT — and while I love the rare challenges — most of it is just... boring.

Honestly, I’m starting to think that no matter what job I have, I’ll end up disliking it. It’ll always feel like a chore.

Am I the only one going through this? Am I just lazy? Have I always been lazy when it comes to work?

(For the record, I’m an active guy. I train every day. I'm married, 40 years old, and a proud dad to two kids under 4 — they’re the love of my life.)