Good at being depressed

I'm a gwm 44 poz/undetectable going on 5 years. My last bf was around 7 years ago. The town I live in is small and conservative and more like an episode of the Twilight zone than real life. I'm pretty sure I'm truly happy and content with the life I have. I believe my knight in shining armor is out there somewhere. I just don't understand what's taking so long. Can anyone relate ?