Newly lesbian. Anyone else with these experiences?

Back story. I never explored my sexuality or realized it when I was young. My parents used to talk negative about being gay and it would upset me so bad but I didn't know why. I was also very close with specific female friends but only one at a time. These friendships would last for months and most of them for years. I would spend all my time talking to them and or being around them. If they had other female friends I was jealous or got in to a relationship. I also thought I liked every guy I talked to lol because I thought I was supposed to like boys so I was confusing friendship with crushes. I can see the difference now because of how I was with the girls.

when I was drinking age I always talked to people while I was drinking about wanting to kiss girls and date them

fast forward to now I'm married to a man and am now realizing I'm lesbian