Life's little disappointments.

I always liked the thought of being a sort of Vanessa Redgrave type. Tall, willowy, graceful & cool under pressure.

Instead, I grew to a mere 5 ft 3+a bit inches, tended to dash around everywhere & bump & crash into things along the way from A to B .... & found myself stuck with a very excitable nature! Cool? I don't think so!

Not fair!

OK, your turn!

Be brave!

Gosh, you all turned out just as you'd hoped then?

I wanted to be about 6 foot 5 tall and 300 pounds of muscular studlieness . Instead I turned out 5 foot 6 and 150 pounds (not bad considering that at 17 I was 5 foot 1 and only 95 pounds). So, I got my height numbers backwards and only half the weight and virtually none of the muscle...but I still have that semi-studliness (well in a very dimly lit room with a blind person I do ).

I also wanted to be a cartographer (map maker) or a geophysicist, instead I ended up as a school teacher, not bad for a person who used to daydream all the time.

Personality-wise I seem to have started to find a decent acceptance of myself (only took some 50 years) and not as much of the hot head as I used to be.

Hooray!!!!! The first poster!

There is definitely something to be said for "semi-studliness", Sturgis!

Ah, yes! Self acceptance is good, I agree! But why does it take so bloody long to get there, then?

Beats me why it took me so long, I'm just thrilled it finally happened .

Me, too, actually!

Didnt think about height so Im happy with 5ft7".
Put on weight a couple of years back,it quietly crept up behind me whilst buying the takeaways, only now to I realise i was quite slim before.

Job-In my youth I wanted to be the usual, beautician, hairdresser, geologist(or whatever Indiana Jones is)and a nun!!
Sadly I have always been a tad shy so never really plunged forward into a world of ambition.
I currently have the world crappiest, soul destroying, dull, IQ dropping, no sense of achievement,help me im dying, office job.I was infact going to post yet another 'do you hate your job/Im so bored' thread, then I saw this one.

I know I have to do something creative with my life and have made big steps to at least make the creative idea Ive had for a while come to life with the hope to sell it one day, maybe it will become my job, but slowly and surely Im determined to not hate my entire exsistence.

Personality-Ive been very shy, self doubting, always apologetic to the point of letting people walk all over me, with a serious inferiority complex.
Only the last 3ish years have I realised that my opinion is just as valid as anybody elses and not everybody is better than me.
Im tough and ballsy now, I agree, why did it take so long.

In conclucion-hopefully my life is improoving,it cant get any worse.

Bravo, mg!

AND at a mere 30-something there's ample time to mould that life of yours into something that better suits! Yes?

I've dreamed to be James Bond, but no way...

What, Francis, spying, killing & seducing droves of beautiful women? But is that REALLY you? :wink:

It doesn't matter. Lots of people just pretend...

Yes. Dream on & enjoy, then!

Cool, in that case Im a Bond Girl!!Or Wonderwoman or Daisy Duke or Alexis Carrington Colby Dexter....

Thanks Msolga.Im hoping I havnt wasted too much time.Im aware my 20's were a complete disaster.I have no desire to be as young again, I want to get older and wiser.

I seem to recall my twenties as being .... um, rather all over the place, mg! But, god, I was beautiful! Just kidding. The thing is, I look at photographs from then & think: Why did I imagine I was so not-quite-so ....? I was perfectly OK!

So, mg, what's the future plan? Older & wiser & anything else ...?

I cant work out if I was OK or not.Yes I realised whats important, I had/have a roof over my head, food on the table and clothes on my back but I feel like everybody has a better life than me.Suppose Im jealous in a way, I wouldnt deny anybody anything they have, its just, why cant I have it too.

Future plans-Get a boyfriend(ahahahahahaha, no really, I had one once), get a descent job(a creative one that pays a fortune), stop being negative/sarcastic, start to eat better, get fit, the fortune i earn from my job will mean I can move out of home.

What else do yuo suggest?

oh and try to get rid of stupid emotional baggage caused by people I couldnt give a hoot about.

I think that sounds sufficient, mg!
Just one suggestion, though: Don't be so hard on yourself!

Good things come in small packages