What am I??

Well, I am a girl 18 years old. I had my first crush on a girl way back in primary. Had a straight and homophobic phase in between (how ironic) and realised once again when I started watching Pretty little liars that I am queer. I was about 13 here. My parents are both not really supportive so they both do not really know and my dad is turkish, so... Anyhow let's get to the point. I would have considered myself bisexual for quite some time but lately I have been thinking and I do think I am a lesbian. I have never been in a relationship nor kissed somebody (mainly because I did not want to kiss a guy as my first kiss). I rejected/ still reject guys but I do flirt with some. I could see myself in a sexual act with a guy, but I don't really crave it? Also on TV, I do not really like straight romances and nor do I quite like straight sex/kissing scenes. However, heterosexual sex scenes do arouse me. And they often arouse me more than lesbian sex scenes... I keep rewatching kissing scenes between girls. Because first of all I want to experience it as well???? and second of all it just makes me hot, not wet, but hot.. Heterosexual scenes do not make me hot but they do make me wet. I am just hella confused and I know it's a weird question. Am I not lesbian? I mean I read lesbian fanfictions, yuri and what not. If I do watch porn (which I rarely do but yk how twitter is) I only watch male x male it kinda seems the most authentic and yes arouses me the most. But idk if it's just me but lesbian or in general pornographic scenes with women are just soooo exaggerated. Like that's not even how it is and sometimes the faces and sounds the girls make? it's just weird af. Anyway, is it normal that I as a lesbian or a bisexual girl with a preference for women do not get as aroused watching lesbian scenes as I do when watching male x male or male x female? (and no I am not forcing myself to be gay, I just genuinely do not like men in a romantic way)