Anger management or lack of

Doing good in general, in last 7 months that I'm in therapy I've only lost my **** twice.

I know I'm crazy in this regar and I go full mental, but it's never out of the blue.

1. Dude was, is still, by best friends boyfriend, from the second i walked into their apartment, she had her birthday party, he was giving me the middle finger... I tried to talked it out in the first 30minutes I was there... he didn't. After many hours of his disrespect I lost my **** I wanted to get out. But he locked the front door and blocked my way... I was angry as hell. He didn't let me out for about an hour and I was roaring at his face the whole time... I wanted to get smacked, hurt, beaten just so the disrespect would stop....

To be continued...