Im in love and i need advice

so I've always loved my best friend (we're both girls) and I would die for her and I'm not exaggerating when I say that even on her worst days she is the most beautiful woman I've ever met with her long chocolate hair and those hazel orbs that I could stare into for hours if I could and I know she love me and wouldn't leave me but its a different kind of love yknow? and she loves this one girl and has for years and it hurts like hell because I know when I stay up thinking about her and crying at night she texting her and loves her and we've all been through hell together and have a close bond that couldn't be broken but even tough her and the woman she loves finally gave up one another after 3 years of off and on she told me she will always love her no matter how much it hurts and I know it's selfish but I wish I was her first love you know and it hurts like hell and knows I will always feel this way since she was my first love anyways thanks for reading my dumbass story.


- D.M Tackett