Caught up

Hi, just need an opinion on this issue..
So I liked this man at my workplace and we would bumped to each other every day. So months went by and my colleagues realised that he always being awkward whenever we encountered.. and I tried few tests to see if its true. Yes its true that he’s awkward around me. He didnt treat me the same way he treat my women colleagues. So i thought he hates me. I backed off. But then he initiated the talk and shown some interest. So we went for group lunch. Whenever he speak to my other women colleagues, he can see them straight in the eyes and speak fluently. However when i try to speak to him, he would stutter and only occasionally look into my eyes. So i thought he is not interested. But whenever i try to talk with his male colleagues, he interrupted. Its so much confusing. Then the phases of pulling the string went for few months, i initiated and he didnt, he initiated ignored.

To cut story short, after few months, it was confirmed that he had interest and feelings on me as his colleague told me.

When i thought everything is going to be well, I had lunch with my woman colleague. My colleague faced the entrance while im facing her. She realized that someone stopped and starred at her and found out it was him (my crush). And he was with a women (idk the status). She said that his face was totally busted face and he stared for a while, i guessed he knows that he is busted now. As if he signaling my colleague not to tell me.


When i paid, it happened to be that his table was just behind the cashier. So i sensed that he gave me the deep look and he’s hoping that i would look at him. But no I dont have the courage to do so.

So my question is, why is behaving that way? He can simply walk away when he saw us instead of stop for awhile. And why did he stared at me while the girl he went with just infront of him? And the rest of the afternoon, he avoided me and whenever we met, he didnt look at me.