About Psychology

Why do I feel that every time am talking to someone or just having a good time or simply laughing once is over, I feel like I'm being fake? Like if you'll ask me, I honestly don't know what loving another human being is. Sure I care for one but, never enough. You can come to me and tell me that person has died, I would probably feel bad, but it won't last long. And trust me, I know from experience. I would continue with my life like always. My family has asked me who I love the most and, I don't know if something is wrong with me. I have told some family members that I don't love them. I care for them but, I can go months or even weeks without talking to them. I being told by some of them that's just a face that I would grow out of it. The problem is, I've been feeling like this since I was little. They, finding out now because I don't want to be fake to people anymore.

I can not love another person or even hate. I never in my entire life hated someone. Sure, I would feel disappointed, never hate. I had people talk about people killing someone or doing something to an animal. I don't feel hate for that person. If I saw them in the streets, I won't say anything negative to them. I just feel disappointed. I think a lot about my feelings, which I can't understand myself. I also would see how people around me express some feelings that I don't quite understand. I know what they are I just don't know how to express them myself. Like love, hate, worried, or empathy sometimes. I'm barely 16 years old. If anyone has some advice for me, that would be helpful. Even if anyone is going through the same thing as me, anything is helpful.