Is it all over ?

8 yeards ldr... been trying all year to get over the hump . beief synopsis . ima nin love with a 34 year old woman who is both bi-polar and has terminal heart disease will die sooner without various medicine. i have been trying to carry her financially for over a year and half. but i failed. most recently this month. i also was fasely accused and had a suspension from my last job lasting 5 months although the final outcome was that i broke a rule i had no idea i had broken . it still hurt me to my soul and hurt her because i couldnt afford the medicine she needed. anyway this year as you know has been a calamity financially . she left her husband last december due to him physically abusing her . Anyway she left to save her life and i did evertything i could for her whenever i had money this year. anywas she has three kids and recently in july had to deal with a molestation of her oldest daughter so even though i got her back to america and back to her mom after months she had to leace again and go to California to try to help her daughter. she got a loan and i paid for it. well as you know unemployment benefits decreased yet i still managed until i got into even more debt for her .She claimeed she needed to show the court that she was trying to do things financially for her kids so i got a loan . it was a bad deal and im still paying too much a month for this loan which wont expire till next year end of Feb. Anywa due to this loan i could no longer afford her rent and other obligations along with my own .she found no other income and this month iran out of money and she was evicted from the room she leased for four days then she borrowed money from this unsavory character. She knew that wasn't a good idea but she was desperate .she told me she would kill herself before he could claim his money however one of her childresn birthdays was this month. two weeks pass and i didn;t have the money but i managed to get the money for her rent this past week, a little birthday money for a gift for her kid. money for food toilet paper and water. not a lot but something. my bank balance is $2 . but the unsavory character she has stil been dealing with whenevr i didn;t have money. husband left out of town and ddidn;t leave her any money so she decided to do a sexual favor for it not full intercourse with the unsavory character her rubbed it in called her a whore but she did it . ok i could nt stop her and she told herself she had to do it because her kids needed to eat. and thee wasn;t any other way for her to get money. Fast forward to the weekend before thanks giving i had no money only two dollars but she has been sick for a few weeks and needed medicine. Sh e decides that one again she needs to do something sexual to get medicine so she wont die . she goes to have sex with him but it doesn;t work out instead of paying her she says he beat her but she stole something from him and he threatened to kill her. Fast forward to the next day he has caught her and has her phone i ger a message saying she is his now. so i replied i dont hear at all from her till that evening and she needs money. but i dont have any . i frantically call everyone i know to try to sell whatever i could or borrow but its thanksgiving an no one has anything. so Icant help and the next day she tells me he has decided to have his boys come over and gang rape her . i couldnt stop it nor get any money . So now she says she doesn;t want to ever see me or talk to me ever again. I understand that she is hurt. but i also tried to get her not go to him so many times she threatened to go there with him but when i had money i would sent it this time however i couldn;t pull off a miracle. I am heartbroken and torn . There wasn't anymore i could do and yet i know shes is hurt and angry at first she tried to blame me and asked me hoiw could i let this happen . and i told her going to him was also her blame she insists on going to this guy for money . she claimed that she couldn;t get it anywhere else and i was always the savior. im not going to dwell on who is right or wrong . i just want to know what everyone thinks and should i just do as she says and leave her alone. i know this a nightmare i never wanted and i feel bad it happened she wants me to feel totally guilty and i dont; i think we have both made some poor decisions even if she never admits it. Does anyone think its salvageable or is it truly over. and time for me to move on and forget her. She needs 12 medications , has no income and she keeps saying at least i have somewhere to stay and i dont have to be homeless . i dont even have money to send her back to her mom in missisppi anymore. i know i created a selfish monster. and i do know that she hates depending on anyone but ... agin forgive me i feel torn and heartbroken . Thanks for any replies you provide