Anger & depression

I was feeling very very low in the past 4 years , im 21 years old moroccan , i started hating all people , everyone i see is like a threat to me , i have no trust anymore , i dropped out of high school because of the educational system here is very terrible ,now i have no future , i suffer from extreme poverty , there are no jobs , i have no friends , i also never had a girlfriend , i dont know how to socialise with people anymore, i littirally talk like a robot, i watch some very bad types of porn scenes , i just want to stop this , i feel like there is no cure for it , i have two choices "going to jail , or die " there is no other way , i feel like im trapped like a mouse with a bunch of snakes around me , it gets darker every day, my entire life i haven t been happy even once , i hate this county that im in ,most people are so ignorant and superstitious, i dont follow any religion , i feel like i got an evil mentality , since i was young i was treated unfairly , that made me start working out by age 12 i was doing 200 push ups in a raw i had too much energy , and also now i feel like i want to move and do many things but i found my self cuffed . too much pain inside it's like a black hole , i never stop thinking ,i stay awake all night i sleep untill 7:00 AM , i cant take it no more .