@maxdog,
Having a 'programmed' competitive mindset is the real kick in the butt - But you 'must' adhere to 'normality' of culture, creed, religion or team - Coz...
That's the true path to enslavement, afterall.
Would you like 'OFF' that rollercoaster, Max?
If so - Take it to PM's, or not, and let your 'Teams' ups-and-downs determine your state-of-mind.
Been 'There', btw.
Great learning-curve approaching - Dare ye thus tread...?
namaste