Trust lost

despite my boyfriend and I love each other and been together for over six years he has lied to me about his finances of those years and sometimes I have actually broken up for a while. We did reconcile last year and he promised to be totally transparent when it came to his money issues and while he has improved I can’t stop thinking that he’s lying to me about it on some level. As a result I constantly check his records to see if he’s lying and this has led to some misunderstandings resulting in him being very angry with me because he feels I’accusing him of something that isn’t true but I’m reality I just don’t trust him.

How do you get over this what don’t you get over once trust is broken on occasions how do I move forward with him or shouldn’t I? I also judgment decisions seem to be very poor including using his elderly mother’s money on a temporary basis and only once I needed to talk to you but it to he actually replace it. I was just not meant for each other at this point in time where is it that I’m trying to find where that I can trust and financially or be safe with him financially?