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Mon 28 Jan, 2019 10:39 pm
Ok so I moved from Cheshire to be closer to my gf, I moved my job my children everything to be closer to her and so that we can spend more time together. The thing is I believe she has schizoid personality disorder. We can see each other for maybe one day a week or 2 at the max then sometimes it's more. For instance I had not seen her for 2 weeks then I say " let's meet up for a date" she agrees but more often than not I go to her as my children well young men are old enough to be alone. Ok so we go on this date and she's over the moon to see me and we have a fantastic night.
The next day each time I hug her she starts to push me away and can't even cope with my talking to her. Then that evening I was to stay over and all of a sudden she's out of bed sat in the kitchen and asks if she can take me home as her head is screaming out to be alone, even though we hadn't seen each other for 2 weeks.
So I say (still in my pyjamas) ok let's go and I'm trying to hide my hurt. But then as we arrive at my home she changes her mind and wants to be with me for the night, the next day she has work so up she goes. Now I have been off work sick with anxiety and stress but I'm back in a couple of days and she's taken the week off. Our shifts will mean I won't see her very much so we should be taking advantage of this time but no she retreats to her room as she shares a flat with her parents. Now I don't know when I'm going to see her again but I'm so desperately lonely and sick and tired of going to bed and waking up on my own. Plus it's impacting on my anxiety.
She always comes up with excuses but I don't know how much loneliness I can put up with and I feel like I'm being pushed into an affair I don't want just to ease the loneliness. She will even send me weblinks on how she snd other people preger to kiss their pet than their significant other, she can quite often sjut herself away she isnt very social and struggles socially and interacting with others when I'm quite the opposite. She will discuss our living together in the future but always backtracks. Even when it comes tp our buying a caravan she will turn around and adk her dad to go away with her and never makes reference to me.
I'm trying to go it alone more with getting out for walks etc but boy it hurts. I do say to her and what about me but there isnt much from her. When we lay in bed together she will say "let's stay like this for ever" but then comes the comment about taking me home
So advice please from anyone who knows anything about schizoid in relationships
@Sarlav,
I'm not a doctor and I bet you aren't, either.
She just sounds flaky to me. Probably nothing specifically diagnosable.
Choose if you want to live this way.
No I'm not bit her dad also has schizoid and she is no different to him tbh because when you see it from the angle of someone in the same home having it, it becomes all the more clear to see. This has been a common theme throughout our relationship. There has been times when she would just shut herself away and we rarely do anything social. Her job means she works on her own she has one friend she sees at birthdays and Christmas. Her past relationships have been built on distance. But my spending 5 days and nights on average per week on my own after moving here and she's a 20 minute drive away is it good for me. This past 12 months it's been my going to her mainly.
Yes that is my dilemma and I'm going to discuss it with her as i can't do this lonlines night after night. She gets some kind of kick out of saying things she knows upsets me but, I'm learning not to bite but at the same time it hurts.
But your spot on I do have to decide if I'm going to put up with it as I'm of happy.
@jespah,
Today is a fine example, she lives with her parents she's 35 and I'm 51,today she's off to sit at a railway train spotting which is actually so relaxing so enjoyable but she's going with her dad, it would have been sooo nice to be asked but nope. I have stated that our age gap outs us in different points in our lives , our wants and needs so different. She will make up excuses but im tiring of that.