@Loveroflife,
Loveroflife wrote: it probably isn't a big deal or a deal breaker but I feel like it is
if it is a big deal or deal breaker to you - then it is
it doesn't matter about anyone else
be confident in your belief about what is important to you
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I'd suggest more time just for you and your son/s without being involved in a relationship. work on your confidence/self-esteem. Don't let what happened in your marriage keep you from understanding/believing that you deserve to have your needs heard and understood.