A ' life re-evaluating ' dream

I had this dream last night that woke me up in tears.
It wasnt until now, almost half the day later , that I realized what it might mean.
It was pretty good so I thought I would share it.

I had this dream that i was in a large studio/theater like place. As I was watching the front of the room, alot of things were flying by. Every thing that I saw was part of a large equasion. I dont know how to explain it , but i knew that the images were either positive (+) numbers, or negative (-) numbers and for a while I was able to keep count in my head. Then ,,,, it just got too big.
But these images were of things I had done.
Alot of bad things started the show. Some of these things I had COMPLETELY forgotten I had done. Example : I was maybe 14, and i was walking in my neighborhood at something like 2 in the morning. I had snuck out of the house and was just walking around. I noticed on this mans porch that he had left out his watch. No lights on, nothing, so I walked up and stole it. The whole time I was out, my grandmother, ( now dead ) was crying scared at home. She had heard something in the house, ran to my room and found my window open and screen torn. In her mind, something happened TO ME, instead of me just sneaking out.
A few other worse things were shown to me and all of them were negative parts of the equasion.
The very end was the long part and the hardest part. Every single patient I have ever taken care of that died showed thier faces to me. It was like a parade. Some were angry at me. Some were just consumed with love. I wasnt able to speak very much but I remember telling some of the angry ones that "Alzheimers did this to you, not me" when they blamed me for thier deaths. Thier families, friends and other nurses ( who are now dead also ) were part of the parade. It was the most loving thing I have ever experienced in a dream. Each and everyone stopped this walking parade, turned to me and said something. Some were thank you's for helping them while they were dying, some were thanking me for reaching out to thier families after they died. I was on my knees just crying so hard I couldnt see alot of the faces.. but WOW.. there had to be hundreds. I KNOW there were hundreds. My nursing career was almost 10 years long and there were sometimes 5 people dying a week from this terrible disease.
I remember seeing people I had forgotten about and that hurt tremendously. I pride myself on never forgetting the dead. But I am human. It happens.
At the end of it all, the ' screen' of the parade went blank and this big slamming sound surrounded me and said NOT ENOUGH.
ANd I woke up.
Crying. HARD.


My thought on this dream is a life evaluation. I have done alot of good things for people I never knew, strangers, sick and dying people, thier families friends etc. I have done alot of bad to people . But if I were to die today, I dont think i am in -balance- with my good and bad. I dont think I have done all that I am capable of . I have not been as productive of a person as i should.

So, if YOU were to evaluate your life at this moment... are you happy with what you have done? What would be YOUR legacy?