Not a question, just need to heal

Five months ago I discovered my husband had been texting with another woman for over a month, the conversations were not sexual, however, you could tell they flirted and talked about different topics. It broke my heart to see he recommended songs I recommended to him or books I had recommended to him. When I confronted him about it, he recognized he was wrong and admitted he had texted with other women before and talked about sexual things even sent and received pictures. I felt devastated. We have been trying to work out this issue, he understands it will take me a while to forgive him, and some part of me wants to forgive him and forget this whole thing. I know he did not cheat on me by having sex with someone else, but to me what he did is grave and it hurts really bad, it's hard. Some days I don't know how to love him, how to look at him or live with him, I feel empty and broken, like I don't want to be here. I don't know if this is a phase or if I will feel this way for the rest of my life.