Does she really want to be with me?

I am crazy about this woman. I'll try to keep it short but I have to give a bit of background: I used to do Pest Control and I met such a beautiful girl a few years ago. Her and I got along immediately. I thought she was married but as it turns out she was in the middle of a divorce. Once I found that out I was a bit more flirty, and she eventually called ME and asked me if I wanted to go see a movie. We only went out a couple of times, no sex and we never even kissed (which I later found out she wanted to). We were on the phone a lot though. Like 2 teeagers (we are both in our mid 30s) and she said that she was talking to some guy that she used to like fairly often even though he didn't even live in the same city and she felt it would be unfair to him if her and I went any further. Whatever. Stupid, right? I reluctantly let it go. Fast forward a year and I half... I was bored one night, had a few drinks, and got on Facebook and sent friend requests to about 7 people, including her (I unfriended her before). She immediately accepted. Her divorce had been finalized about 6 months before and she had been dating some guy for a couple months. I also was very casually dating someone. Our chemistry picked up right where we left off. Conversations were effortless, and the physical attraction was obviously there to the point of us having phone sex. She was unsure of this other guy but kept feeling guilty about talking to me like she was. I would have to say she told me 3 times that we couldn't speak anymore over the course of 9 days but it kept happening. We were both guilty about that going... I sent her a text one day soon after the last "we can't talk" just to say hello and she finally broke things off with this guy. The next day she calls me and asks me what I'm doing on New years eve, so we went to dinner, and went back to her place and talked for hours. I stayed the night and we ended up having sex the next morning. So.... (this is exhausting already) in a nutshell over the next two days she's saying that she needs to try to live as a single, divorced woman and just date around a little before she gets back into another relationship (which I had a big problem with) then eventually comes to the conclusion that she doesn't want to ruin a good thing with me if that's a possibility. The next day I saw her again wasn't much of a "real" date... Idk... Just talked for a couple of hours and ended up in bed again. 3 days later she wanted to give the idiot she dumped before, to be with me mind you, another chance. We talked a lot before that happened. They lasted 2 days. I know they weren't together during that time. I do (details...). We were talking after that for about a week, no dates or anything else, then I get a phone call with her crying saying that she's going back to this psycho AGAIN! At this point I just wanted to hang myself, but be friends regardless. I care for her very very very much, and I wanted her to reconsider, but that wasn't going to happen. It was very emotional on both parts. Lots of crying (not just me). SO..... after about 3 weeks, I sent her a text saying hi and wishing them the best, and she had left him again. I didn't know, and I acted like I didn't care but I knew that was going to happen again. Just a matter of time. I could elaborate here and there but for all intents....... The guy is an asshole and thats being nice. She called me that night and told me that she has had a problem with bulimia (she had been hiding that from me). I wanted to tear her a new one from what she had put me through but I didn't because I was worried. I mean, of course I was and still am. She then asked if I would like to get together sometime soon. I said "ummm, sure. I know that you need to keep your mind off of all that stuff... (that's not verbatim obviously)", so we talked every day on the phone for about a week and finally got together. We basically latched on to each of like magnets, very passionately kissing and holding each other. It was very gentle, as it usually was; its not like some porn or any kind of **** buddy thing. The way we kiss each other makes me melt.... We talked for a while, she opened up, apologized for a few things, cried as as held her, and we made love. Which turned into... Lol. Let's just say for as soft spoken, well mannered, and as sweet and nice as we both can be neither of us lack sexual energy. It was amazing. It always is. Very intimate. We just stared into each others eyes afterwards. (Sigh
..) I'm talking too much... I'm almost done. That was last Saturday. We were supposed to get together this past Wednesday but we had to switch to Thursday which was fine except I was waiting for her to call me all day and I got worried so I called her. ANYWAY, if you read all of that you're a saint, this is where I need help. It gets messed up:

She calls and starts talking about her having anxiety which I immediately ask what's wrong... And, omitting details, she said she "doesn't feel a spark" all of the sudden and she's afraid of wasting my time and hers. She's crying, I'm tearing up. I raised my voice a few times but I didn't curse at her much, but I never have before. I HAD to know why. I was under the impression that we will never speak again, so I figured screw it. She said that I don't have enough ambition and that she doesn't think she can fall in love with someone that doesn't realize their full potential. I'm not rich. I'm not, but I can play 9 different instruments that I taught myself just for fun, I exercise regularly, I'm fairly well spoken, and I'm not your typical man-whore that tries to screw anything that moves. Plus, I knew that I was in a rut, so I just changed carrers to better myself. That happened right before we started talking again for the first time in a year and a half. She DID say that she has compulsive behavior, but the way we have acted with each other doesn't make me think it was just some fling. Neither one of us are like that. I know she's been through a lot, and I know she's confused. She even once said that she was nervous because she thinks we would go a long way... I guess if you look at the big picture sure it can be nerve wracking, but it's not a bad thing. All I want is to be there for her, support her in her time of need, have fun with her, and treat her like the beautiful person I know she usually is, but Idk what to do! Someone please.... I need help, advice,.... I can't stop thinking about her. I've never felt like this before.