@PUNKEY,
I'm 23. And no this is not my first relationship, I've been in many. We have been together for 5 years with a break in the middle where I dated a few others. However I chose to be as intimate in sex with only him. I've only ever wanted sex with someone I truely care about. I've never been physically attracted enough to anyone else until I met my now fiance 5 years ago he just struggled with a lot and we had a break 2 years ago until we got back together.
As far as only dressing risque...I'm doing it to be looked at. I've flashed people a few times on the blvd towards guys checking me out. When I purchased several push up bras mathces for the first time my intent was to attract a man enough to have sex. That was my thinking that was ny dirty secret at several lingerie stores. I found a guy who wasn't necessarily attractive but was conveniently alone at my local dog park who approached me with his number for "coffee sometime"...in which I texted him exclusively so we had coffee a few times and the second "date" I asked him to **** my brains out. Of course even as I wore my emgagement ring and told him my situation he was willing to oblige at my request. We met at a park he started groping me and I felt sick. I asked him to stop but he wouldn't. He was strong and started tearing at my clothing telling me what he was going to do and that I needed to relax. I punched him and he began to bleed and he started after me as i tried to climb back in my SUV...I was lucky another guy was running that night and intervened.
I don't want to meet up with strangers. I DONT want risky sex with other potentionally infected or agressive men. I want sex uncontrollably.
In the beginnif if every relationship there's a lot of sex. I've just never craved it so much. I'm healthy and haven't undergone different birth control or prescriptions. I've started a new hot yoga but I've always been a gym junkie and do yoga all the storme
My darlin and I have sex everyday sometimes twice but its not enough. He's had severe chafing and even rug burn on days Ive basically ambushed him. We've been caught by police teice for sex in a public place all my fault.
Work. School. Life in general is the same I just want sex. We've been trying a lot over the years from toys to punishment and even all day. But I want more. I can tell he's tired and hes such a sport he never turns me down but he needs sleep he needs rest and I need serious help.