Watching Porn ALL THE TIME without my Husband..

I feel like before I dive in I need to give you some background. My husband and I have been together for 10 years (Married for 4 of those years). From the very beginning of our relationship I knew that my sex drive was way higher than his. But he still satisfied me and all was good for the first couple of years. Then it just got worse and worse... it became way less frequent and it became so quick and hurried.. no passion or fun... and now it is just awful. Over the years it has greatly affected my confidence in this department and I almost feel scared to initiate anything.. and in his defense, I could try much harder than I do.. but I just have no confidence to make that first move.. and he doesn't make it either.. no one is making moves and I am sexually frustrated! I like fun, different, kinky and dirty (if you will) sex so it's not like I am a bore in bed! I am also not overweight or out of shape.. I get compliments from randoms all the time and take good care of myself (and no I am not full of myself but I feel that is important to know in this situation)... Lately, I have completely given up on my sexual life with my husband.. and I have been, very often, watching porn by myself and getting myself off... He has no idea, I do it when he is not around... and No I do not think this is cheating on my husband (though I know of many girls who think their guys watching porn is cheating.. I beg to differ, it's a freaking video)... anyway, I do somewhat feel bad that porn is getting all of my sexual attention.. I mostly feel bad because I don't even want to try to save our sex life because I get myself off no problem.. and it's very fun! However I do love my Husband and being 100% honest I can tell you that this is the ONLY thing lacking in our marriage.. if we could get this dialed in we would be so amazing... he is such a great Husband and I love him with all of my heart.. I just want him to want me.. I want him to throw me down on the bad and just give it to me so to speak... but I have no confidence in bringing this up anymore... I used to bring it up all the time, which I actually think just hurt our sex life more. I just don't know what to do... We have tried to watch porn a few times together and that was usually hot, but I don't want to have to do that every time. I am aching for some hot, consistant bedroom fun. it hurts my heart that he doesn't have the desire for it. And before anyone says it, I know in my heart he is not cheating on me so that is not why he doesn't want it.. again, he has had a lack of sex drive since day one of our relationship and I believe its more of a testosterone level thing. anyway... HELP ME.. porn and toys are fun, but my Husband would be way more fun...