@chai2,
I totally agree with you.
Thank you, chai2, Joeblow, and Pemerson for give me support. It really helps. It make me feel I am not alone and that I know I am not insane.
I am a little disappointed that I am the person that broke this out to her. While everyone are hanging there hoping one day someone will tell her what's the wrong. She has been telling me about who and who reacts unreasonably to wards her requests and that she wasn't asking too much from them. I have been trying to keep my head down without being that person so I could live my life quiet and peaceful. Now I am the person who hurts her with truth and have to have cold war with her till whatever time it takes. It has been a secret EQ race between all of us. We were trying to find out who is the ultimate survivor in this situation.
However, I feel a great sense of relief.
No more feeling guilty for "waking her baby" because I refuse to mind him so she could go and collect her other children from all places. No more feeling terrible for putting her in an awful situation when she is desperate need help "to bring her son's friend home". No more feeling frustrated for must help her on a Friday night so her marriage won't suffer and her husband couldn't go out to have a date with each other and have fun. No more feeling annoyed and in a terrible mood to think that I am responsible for her not able to lose the last kilogram because I refuse to mind her kids so she could go for a run, while I couldn't do mine. She is really good at using words to make her case work. I have don't it all and refused the rest come afterwards.
I was hoping my father in law would have handle the conversation better than I could have achieve. Let her down gently. It turns out that he went to tell her literally to stop bothering me. In what type of tone of voice, I am not sure. She was upset by it, big time. Whether the truth hurts or maybe he just not that type of people who is good at taking care of feelings. I don't know in this case, this there any possibility that she wouldn't get angry to hear request respect of my personal space from her. It is the result of what I would like it to happen but I thought he would have articulated his word much better than I could. He wasn't leaning towards any side but to do the right thing. I probably chose to do it myself the next time. I am grateful that he is not backing any side and that he chose to do the right thing.
My hubby came back two days ago from a business trip, still having jet lack, and we have been fighting over this issue since he is home. Like my father in law, he wonders whether I am being too hard for not helping her. I keep telling him that whether I am or not, I don't enjoy doing those work for her and this reason is enough a good reason to refuse her. He is trying to be nice but it hurts me when I need supports. I also do not want him to agree with me when he doesn't believe that my behavior is decent. This make my intention to keep my head down very difficult... And the whole crap become very unbearable.
I hope it's all over.
I have been examining how I have handled her during the period. Wondering could I have done things better. I wonder how I ended up the person to break the truth to her and others didn't? I am aware a normal person don't behave this way anyway. What can I do the next time that I could be not the one to suffer?
I try to refuse her directly and give excuses, tell her my personal life is very busy, my health is very in bad condition, my daughter need a lot of care from me that I am not available to do other things. Is it possible that this is not an enough clear message to know I don't like to give her hand on daily based? Do people always refuse other by tell them they are unreasonable to demand such thing? I am quite sure I was strong enough to stand up for myself...
If you can, do please give me your input to help me learning to handle it the next time. I don't like to be the one being accused for hurting other even-though I know in this case, that's didn't make sense.
Thank you, guys. I am really grateful for you guys supporting me. I am really grateful.
I was watching "Scrubs" tonight and I was able to be amused by the silly jokes. I realized that the thought of I have to help her anytime she likes is worse than being hated by sister in law. I laughed and laughed at the jokes, together with my hubby tonight. Still bother by the issue but at lease I know this is going to end soon.
Thank you for cheer me up! chai2
It works.