i need to be insipired

well its been sometime seen ive gotten in....
if anyone of you guys have read any of my old posts....you can see my life wasnt to well. you can say now its not even well at all, its lower than well, its undescrible.
i know this post are about knowing how to do something..,but i need help. i can spend hours wrting and describing my story.
i rather save you the time and if you can say something helpful...i would appericated a lot.

thank you