I am a person without a formal education (GED). My ancestor from my grandmothers side were German Jewish. On my father's side they have been in the United States for a verry long time. They got married in the mormon Temple in Salt Lake City (its suppose to be a great honor for this to happen in the temple) .I have been diagnosed with schizoprania. It scares me to death!! I have no idea whats instore for my future. I was born in Salt Lake City. Had my first birthday in a Japonese ship heading to Brazil. Were my parents got divorced. I remained there till the age of 10. I then came to the U.S. Spend most of time in New Jersey till the age of 15. I then visited my aunt in the Ballerics Islands of the coast of Spain (beautifull place. my grandmother is burried there). Were my bragging high point was being in a toga party and going to the royal sailing of spain (something my aunt enroled me in to keep me off her hair). I got to see the royal yacht (pretty cool when your 15). I was there for a couple of months cant quite remember. When I went back to NJ I ended up getting in some trouble and my mom sendded me to life with my father in Texas ( so yall may hear me saying yall a few times.....its ingraved in my vocabulary
). Then my grades stared falling after a few years in Texas, so my father shipped me back to my mom in NJ
. From there I got my GED and joined the Army as a cook. Was stationed in germany until the Kuwait Iraq crisis. I then went into the conflict. And the most popular question evreyone asks is "Did you kill anyone" or "did see some action". So let me save time. No i dint kill anyone. And action well just the after effects from the action. After the conflict I went back to Germany. Help close my base there in Furth. Then re elisted as an Infranty men. Was stationed in Forth Campble Ky for a few years till my discharge. I wondered around in a few places including Las Vegas. I then got a job assebling giant steel structures, like 8ft to 120ft tall shelving systems, mezzanines, pick modules, basicly most things inside a storage facility that were made of steel and require simple assembly. This job worked for me because I had verry little social contact wile assembling, So my voices could have lenghty conversations wile I assembled. Well the problem became that the longer that you are in a specialised field the more tricks of the trade you pick up. You then start passing down what you learned more and more . Till one day you wake up and you are running the project. Well here lies the problem. For me when I read or see something that grabs my attention I have discutions in my mind over and over. Reading is disabiling to me. How do i explain that to the company? I was like the black sheep that you count of having disorganized paper work and that you had to drag and assist with any paperwork. My disease progressed to in personal opinion (wich they considered to be valueble when it came to safety matters) to were i would be putting my life or someone elses life in danger. I then came to live with my aging mother that has trouble getting up when she falls down. The disease has now complety disabled me. I have trouble performing what should be the simplest things. My memory is shamfull. Well enough boring evreyone with this. Go read something that might make a difference on your life
PS. If my daughter Tabbitta happens to wonder into this site. I ask you to please read my posts. Understand that there not a day that goes by that I dont think about you. And if you can........... find a little corner in your heart...... just a little piece.......... some where.......... to forgive me........ for convincing myself........... in believing that I was not suitable to be a good parent. I always loved you
