Just a glimpse into my world, Nothing good really, just some random thoughts...
My goal, to escape the unbearable reality that I live in and go to a place far away where there are no worries, where you can stop time and erase the past. Where you can control your dreams and alter your mindÂ… Where the bluest oceans provide the perfect waves and the skies have never shined so bright. Where the rain drops taste of candy and the birds sing songs of happiness. Where we shall never feel pain again and tears will only exist from happinessÂ… Where the sound of a broken heart is only a distant echo in the back of my mind and no longer can be feltÂ…. Where the pain of starving children is filled with the food of the gods and there is peace againÂ…
My goal is for a world that is non-existent, a world that will only exist in my mindÂ… My mind of hopes and dreamsÂ… my mind of erratic thoughtsÂ…
A broken girl only hopes for broken things, desperate to find love but looking in all the wrong placesÂ… and when she does find the love she has been looking for, she will be too broken to grasp onto it and watch it slip out of her fingersÂ… then the broken girl will never be fixedÂ…
As I fly upon the wings of hope, looking for the answers why, I have come to the realization that there are no answers to a question that canÂ’t be fully understoodÂ… The key to life lies within my soul, in the unreachable depths where those who go never come backÂ…
In the fear of never escaping my darkest demons, I know I must fight them.. I must break them down just like they broke me down.. I am not speaking of revenge, only courage.
Afraid to let go of my thoughts, for if I let go, they may be lost forever, therefore a part of me will be lost forever.
Angry thoughts bottle up inside, tucked away, along for the ride. The ride of my life that will someday come to an end, will I die with all these thoughts bottled up inside of me? Will I ever be set free?
this is just thoughts, Nothing special