When you come back, I would expect those around you to see that sparkle return to your eyes....
That's just what I was hoping for, too.
Sweet Montana, I think you're grown up enough to just go, have a wonderful time, and leave it until another 12 months have passed. If not, well, then, you've learned something about yourself, and that's a good thing.
My REAL hope is this will enliven you to the thought that other relationships could be a good thing, too. But you know, you don't have to worry about it AT ALL, because that's not why you're going.
I think when you come back with that sparkle in your eyes, that little happy hip-sway in your walk, that secret smile, men will suddenly find you irresistible. It's not how you look, it's how you feel about yourself. A big dose of love-confidence is my prescription.