Sakhi, I know that it is confusing when the one you love and the one who loves you goes from Dr. Jekyll to Mr. Hyde. Abusive men have a way of making you feel that he is a knight in shining armor. That is the one way that they hook you. It is very clever. The truth is, abuse kills, destroys you even if it is bit by bit. You could be KILLED, or put in a position where you wish you had died. The good parts to him are just that...good. The bad side could cause you so much harm and pain that you may not recover. Have a child with him and the abuse will be extended to them - maybe not physically but mentally. The little boy you made together goes on to abuse and maybe kill. The little girl you made together goes on to choose someone just like daddy or worse takes it out on your grand child. Love yourself first. If you don't believe you should be safe and loved, why should he? Leave...feel the pain but do it anyway. That kind of pain is nothing compared to a shot in the face. You will survive, I did. You will feel like you can't breath but no one ever suffocated because of the loss of a loved one. Leave, the life you save could be your own.
