I too was abused growing up, and got involved with abusive men. There are different types of abuse: physical, emotional, mental.
So now I'll find myself saying things to people that I regret, and it leaves me feeling less than at times.
Yet as long as you apologize and are determined to at least make an attempt or to not repeat it, you'll be fine.
But please notice I said "attempt." That's because if you've been abused in any form or fashion in your life it'll always be a battle unfortunately.
Warning: with attempts there will be periods of repeats. Try not to let that convince yourself that you'll never make it. You will.
You, me, and others like us are what are called "diamonds in the rough." We're indeed very special!