Thank you for replying!
I began to feel like i am in the wrong and that i shouldn't be working so much or arranging to see my family and friends on my days off.
Last weekend he went out at 5ish and come in at 6:30am and woke me up. I questioned where he had been and he said 'i don't want to talk about it' and then the next day he told me he was with his friend and couldn't get a taxi...
I don't ever believe he would cheat on me, but there are so many questions i have unanswered...
After speaking to him earlier,
I'm not sure how we can go forward...
Last year he admitted he had a gambling problem and went to counselling as the extend was so bad.
So i believe if i don't help him, he could go back down that route.
Couple of my friends called me a mug!
Which i don't want! And i don't want to be walked all over however i feel as though i'm in the wrong and should be apologising???
Thank you for your replies. It feels so nice to get it all out and not be judged by people we know.