@christiemarie86,
Yeah, I don't think it's a repeat post either. The 1st one (scanning it quickly) was you talking about things that have happened. In this one you're talking about what you're doing about it.
Everyone needs a break sometimes christie, you don't HAVE to have a boyfriend all the time. You don't even have to associate with men for a period of time if you don't want to.
You're not anti-man, you acknowledged there're nice ones out there.
It's just not the time for you to be involved with one. Figure out and play with who you are for a time. Then, when you're ready in the future to be open to someone, you'll have a much stronger self knowledge base to fall back on.