and hasnt phoned or texted all day after yesterday I told him I was feeling used !
Why can't you stop?
Hope, in hope that he does love you and will leave.
Fear, that you will then be alone, totally.
Excitement, because that 1 day a week he comes over, means you can hold someone.
Why do you feel used?
Because, even though you speak those words, he writes it off, why? Because, he knows you will still be there and doesn't care. If you do leave, he will no doubt after time find someone else who is lonely.
That doesn't mean that men don't have feelings wishingfor, they do and he may "care" for you but he can not totally fall in love with you, he won't let himself if he did care for you. He has a family and he loves that family, he has been selfish, possibly missing something in that marriage and is gaining it from the outside.
Do you feel angry when you get this feeling of being used, or only depressed.
You know there is only one person that can make you happy and rid of this don't you? You.. It is hard to let go, I understand that, but you are worth it aren't you? Worth more? Look in the mirror and tell yourself that, "Actually, I am worth more".. every day.