Your writing is fun for a lot of us here.
Therefore you must persevere.
You must muddelly must
do doodlely do
what you must
bodily bust, bodily bust, bodily bust...
Self expression is one of those things people do out of necessity, but just because kids draw pictures with their poop does not mean we all have to stay at that level... Think great thoughts... Love great loves... Burn with great passion and endure great pain; and then when you have something to tell the world; what, for example, you have learned of life or self, then share it...
Consider what a great teacher is art... I once read fiction by the bushel basket... I wanted to create what I enjoyed, but in the process of trying to learn how to write I had to learn how to think so that the doors of philosophy were opened to me, and in learning about symbols I had to learn about magic since most magic is clearly symbolic, and rhymes were curses, and songs were charms, and though magic, anthropology, psyschology, and sociology were opened to me... And some where between point A and the rest, my desire changed, from controlling the behavior of others with a few chosen words to self control, and expressing for others the journey from slavery to self control which is really a journey from immorality to morality... Art is a created thing, and one does not create out of ignorance, for ignorance can only destroy, or at best, imitate what it does not grasp... If you would be an artist on any level, first know all there is to know, and feel all there is to feel, and if the joy of life still lives in you then sing it out at every dawn like some rooster's cocka doodle do...