Will my girlfriend forgive me?

I don't know. Wish I had more answers for you.

do you accept that people are not in control when blacked out drunk?

thankyou for all your help

Sure.

There's the whole emotional component, though.... I'd accept that it's not the boyfriend's fault, but not sure how much the fact of it would bother me. I do tend towards the super-monogamous side of the spectrum though and am probably somewhat atypical in that.

sorry not sure what monogamous means

Basically, I probably have more issues with jealousy than most people.

But of course all that really matters is what your girlfriend thinks.

I completely understand what you mean.

Well whatever happens. I will fight to the very end for her. I will do all I can to convince her I love her. I think if she sees the state I am in, the love and regret will be obvious. I will never stop. I cant live without her. True love conquers all right?

Sure hope so.

Do think on it for a bit more before you do anything, I would absolutely hate to think I talked you into something that you weren't ready for or that you'll regret. Good luck.

I'm so so sorry this happened to you. She coersed and coersed when you were intoxicated. You shunned her advances and she still persisted. It has a name; harrassment. If it had been a guy behaving the same way towards a girl, he probably would've been arrested! Don't feel bad. Your GF needs to understand that this situation is something that happened to you; not something you did. From the story you've posted on here I can only say that you're innocent. If your GF can't forgive you, then she's going to lose a good guy with real values.