The "L" Word

I'd heard it before, often related to maneuvers such as Foxfyre mentioned, but the first time I heard it and felt like it was meant (by opposite sex/significant other type) was in college. It was mutual. Very fluttery stomach, touching moment that made me cry. Then he kissed my tears and that was even more romantic so...

(sigh)

Awwwww, squinney. The first time, I don't remember clearly. It felt like a shock. We were 15 & 16. Ah, young love. And he was so cute! <sigh> First boyfriend. Met him on a group trip with friends to Colorado. It was magic, just like all first love should be.

Yes... yes I do. It was back during the great snowstorm of '78, in Chicago. JB's husband was out of town and I had just happened to stop in to replenish her supply of firewood. After piling the wood by the fireplace and collecting the paltry sum of money for services rendered, I remember reaching for the check, and as I did so I noticed a gleam in her eye and a certain beckoning.

Confused, I backed off a little and that was when I clearly heard the words, "Gus, I love you."

I left. I left with a heavy heart, knowing that I held the love of JB, but not willing to crush the life from her husband.

What had he ever done to me?

I could not come up with an answer that rationalized my needs.

I walked away with a heavy heart and a protrusion in my trousers that threatened the very life of the seams.

If it slipped out, was it put back in, or was it on to other avenues?

- And where the hell is the quote button?

- And why the hell is there so much wasted space between each post? It's very annoying doing all that extra scrolling!

the first time when it really meant the world was in july 1997. maplewood, new jersey. his mother's kitchen, (err...mother was not home).

The first time? I was 18, so that makes it 1960. It was a brief flirtation for her. I wanted to have a prolonged friendship. She said "I love you," but, it was just a few days until she decided to move on. Fortunately, it did not last long enough or become deep enough to become devastating. No harm, no foul, actually.