Hey Joe (normal is easier sometimes than not normal) Nation
Sometimes, when you wake up and for a moment think that everything is OK, just normal, and the skies are blue.... then you realise suddenly - it's not, and it will never be the normal you knew before....
sometimes it is easier just to pretend and think it's normal coz it's the only way to get through the day. It's easier not to think how your world has turned upside down, it's easier to put on a smile - do an Eleanor Rigby and keep your face by the door, putting it on for the rest of the world to see, and taking it off when you're on own time...
wearing your ring.... keep wearing it for a while - the wound in your heart is so raw right now - keep wearing your ring for a while, 'til it feels right to take it off and so your finger isn't raw too. You'll know when to take it off. You don't need to take it off right now hun.
As time moves on, probably in slow motion for a while, but as it moves on - sometimes, when you wake up, for a moment you'll think that everything is OK, just normal, and the skies are blue.... and actually, it will be - it will feel a little more normal - but it takes time. Don't rush your feelings of what you should feel like or what is expected of you - just feel whatever you're feeling and go with it.
I do believe people can be friends when they break up... but there has to be a time of not being friends.... you have to do whatever is right for YOU and only YOU - when the anger kicks in - your life takes on a whole new dimension - you "change", it can be good change or not so good change depending on whom you're with - the good times seem a far cry away - but the good times will come again - they really will - they will just be in a different way, in a changed world.
Sleep when you can, not when you are supposed to.... sleep is so important - it doesn't come easy tho. Eating is even harder. But you will do both - you will get thru - and you have a whole world, albeit virtual, pulling for you right now - take what you need and do only what is good for you for you to feel some "normal" in your life. Take every comfort you can - no matter how small. Think of you.
Hugs to you. x