I understand your faith, and you're right, there are certainly some things we may not be able to comprehend. I concur that Jesus was a god, the bible says so. Satan is also a god, as is Ba'al, Rah and Eric Cantona.
The scriptures call Jesus the firstborn of creation, while the trinity teaches that Jesus is uncreate, and I will always be disturbed by teachings contrary to what I read.
Can a creation be greater than its creator? Rather Jesus gave no seizure so as to be equal to God (phi 2:6) If Jesus was God, Satan would have had no reason to attempt to gain his allegience through the 3 temptations, but he did try, as he saw a chance to derail Gods purpose.
The problem is that significance of stating that Jesus is the God designifies the meaning behind his sacrifice. I should explain. Adam sinned and therefore the debt of sin entered all of us, one that we as imperfect humans could not pay back. When Jesus died perfectly faithful to God and free of sin, he paid our debt back to God. If Jesus was in fact God himself, he only shows that he could be faithful to his own will. His statement in the garden of Gethsemeny was "let not my will, but yours take place" differentiating between his will, which would have been to avoid dying as a blasphemer, bringing reproach on Gods name, and Gods will, which was carried out.
there are also examples of when Jesus refuted any praise that belonged to God, as identified when he stated " he would not be called, "good" or "rabbi" or "father" always stipulating that the praise or title belonged to God. Jesus did much to seperate himself from God.
When you read the history of the trinity, it actually entered christianity as one of many platonic theories accepted during the early centuries when greek theology impacted on christian belief.