On the edge and toppling off....

I'll put on some tea...

(where's the damn cream?)

Love hurts...

Long, dark tunnel...

his few words....and our song
"every moment every day xox"
"Take care my love. always xox"...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQqWO0GNBU8&feature=related

and then...

I have to put the lid on the box.

Only ice tea in the house and in my part of the world to put cream and honey in that would be a sacrilege.

So I'll enjoy my cup of coffee - sweet and light - and hope some positive vibes land where they'll do some good.

Thanks, fox! Can you see your owl now?! I hope you can.
I'm feeling just a bit more myself today. I fight between the fog of anxiety and the lovely skin crawly feeling that comes with it for me and being my real self. I'm trying my best to function and get things done despite myself. Hubby felt so bad for me he up & took me to Starbucks tonight! It's gonna take time, but I love when I feel like I'm climbing up out of the hole rather than sliding back in. Funny how as a counselor-type person I expect myself to be this super human - when I know darn well I need to go through the process whether I like it or not! Does that make any sense? So, I think it's pretty safe to say that some posi-vibes definitely made it here today, fox-, and I thank you.
... and I'm listening to you too, Iz-. Got an ear (or eye) here for you any & all of the time.

Hey dev,

I'm glad you feel like you're climbing. Keep on keepin' on, hun. You're gonna make it to the top!

The owl has indeed made an appearance and I can see him. He is almost symbolic--you know he's there but he's invisible. I think Dev is beginning to experience that--the light at the end of the tunnel that she knows is there but around another bend. Just have to know its there.

Not a great day today. Had a heck of a time just trying to get sleep. That being said, I'm feeling what I'm feeling and just kinda staying here. Not falling into the pit, just holding on for dear life! Thanks for the encouraging words, J & Fox-

S'awright girlie... we gotta hold of you...you're safe. x

Hey you!

Keep holding on, dev. It's a long climb and feeling what you're feeling is precisely right.

We're here beside you, but it's your pull.

You'll get there. I have no doubt.

One day at a time, hun.


(((((( dev )))))))

Thanks, Iz-, J - You guys keep me keepin' on, I tell ya. Don't forget, I may be a bit broken, but I got yer back as well!

Hugs from the prairie as well, D...

I'll take 'em, thanks Rock! Did y0u (all) ever know that you're my heroes? - Breaks into song...

I'm not worthy of being anyone's hero, but I do have some Wonderful friends...

I stole some of yer songs before, (you have distinguished taste) you know where to post 'em iffn ya wanna...

Rock

Keep on holdin' on...hugs to you Dev. Amazed at your strength.
God bless and keep you hun.
missy

not even S-boys hero....

OK, maybe that one...

(GO BED)

I have a strange feeling....

it's anger...

It's not a nice feeling.

He says...

"I'm saying no when I should be saying yes.
I will love you for an eternity. My Heart is yours always.
We are 1 we will be as 1 forever "

it's just words...

10 months ago he had to leave... now, it's just words

I love you hun, and I have some understanding, but not enough to try it here.

I sent you an e, and am watching that box.

Many hugs, and you know I know anger...

So sorry, (((Iz))) I'm sure you know better than anyone, anger's part of the process. It sucks... And we're here for ya even though ...

Anxiety's about driving me crazy today. Gotta get out tomorrow. Going to a friend's for a pool party. Hoping I'll snap out of it!!

Hugs, Dev...